If you come over to my house, you know what you will see?? A mess! You will see toys strewn across the living room, dust on a lot of surfaces, baby blankets, burp clothes & other baby needs laying about. You may even see a pile of dishes in my sink. Baby clothes that have been washed maybe laying on the guest bed. The bag I used to pack to go to my parents still laying on the floor in my room with a few items in it. I may have dirty floors or counters that need to be wiped. Hell, my bathrooms may even need a good scrubbing.
So I ask you if you come over to look closer. Look at what I am creating, not at the mess. I'm creating memories with my girls. From reading books & doing puzzles with Madison to snuggling on the couch with Paityn trying to get her to smile or coo at me. My house is full of toddler talk, screams & laughter, along with baby coos, cries & smiles. These are the things that matter to me. I get to watch them grow & learn 24/7 now and that is what I want to focus on. I want my girls to remember what we did together & the time we spent together, not "wow, Mom had a really clean house while we were growing up!"
Yes, you would think that being a stay at home mom would give me lots of time to get things cleaned & picked up, but children don't wait to grow up. Therefore, something has to wait & that ends up being the dust on my furniture, the dirt on my floors, the dishes in my sink or those pesky bathrooms, but I in no way have a filthy house either. That in part is thanks to a husband who steps up & cleans or takes over on the memory making for me to get things done.
You see as my house my not look perfect because of the mess, it is perfect because of the memories I made & am making with my girls. Its their laughter & smiles & yes even their cries that make it so perfect. These times are too precious, plus when they go off to school I'll have a lot of time to clean while I miss them.
Friday, May 31, 2013
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
4 weeks
My dear Paityn will be 4 weeks tomorrow. We get to spend lots of bonding time together this week as Madison is visiting family in Alabama with my wonderful parents.
I have noticed that Paityn is a very chill baby. She loves to chill out laying on her blanket on the floor or swinging in her swing or sitting her carseat. She falls asleep within seconds of being put in the Ergo Carrier & will sleep until she is taken out of it. She also falls alseep in her car seat within minutes especially if in motion. She becomes crabby around 7/8 pm & just wants to be held.
Paityn has been the best sleeper too. Since about 5 days old she has been sleeping at least 1 5-6 hour stretch at night with some nights being longer. Her longest has been 8 hours.
She has become a smiley little happy baby. She will lay on the sofa & talk to the back of it. She is constantly smiling & staring at her big sister's pictures too. She has finally started liking her baths too.
I know Madison has been in love with her baby sister. She even told me that she misses Paityn while she has been gone.
We are still working things out as far as how to get cleaning, cooking & yard work done while I have Paityn. Its more difficult with 2 kids, but its all worth it to watch the 2 of them grow.
I have noticed that Paityn is a very chill baby. She loves to chill out laying on her blanket on the floor or swinging in her swing or sitting her carseat. She falls asleep within seconds of being put in the Ergo Carrier & will sleep until she is taken out of it. She also falls alseep in her car seat within minutes especially if in motion. She becomes crabby around 7/8 pm & just wants to be held.
Paityn has been the best sleeper too. Since about 5 days old she has been sleeping at least 1 5-6 hour stretch at night with some nights being longer. Her longest has been 8 hours.
She has become a smiley little happy baby. She will lay on the sofa & talk to the back of it. She is constantly smiling & staring at her big sister's pictures too. She has finally started liking her baths too.
I know Madison has been in love with her baby sister. She even told me that she misses Paityn while she has been gone.
We are still working things out as far as how to get cleaning, cooking & yard work done while I have Paityn. Its more difficult with 2 kids, but its all worth it to watch the 2 of them grow.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
12 Beautiful, Wonderful Days
12 Days. 12 Beautiful, wonderful days. That is how long my youngest child has been in this world. That's how long my oldest has been a big sister, 12 days!
I was worried about how things would go with delivery. I worried about how Madison would be with a baby around. I was worried that my love would be divided & not multiplied when this beautiful little girl entered the world. The truth is, is that the worry was for nothing. Delivery, though it had some scary moments as you can read in my birth story, was fantastic. I felt almost normal just a few hours after.
Madison when she came into my room that afternoon, looked a little worried & then a split second later a smile spread across her face & she jumped up on my bed & asked to hold her baby sister.She gave her hugs & kisses. She has been mommy's little helper since the minute we got home. She has gotten diapers, wipes, blankets, pacifiers & anything else I have asked her to get or she thinks baby sister needs.
Oh & the love! The love has multiplied by a million. I am so deeply in love with both of my girls! To see them together makes my heart swell. I hope they are always like this.The love hasn't just multiplied for my girls.
Its multiplied for my husband. I always knew he was a great man, but to see him taking care of our girls, of me & the house on top of going to work makes me love this man even more. He may not be the guy to give out compliments or say "thank you" for the things I do around the house, but he shows his love in the way he provides for us & takes care of us. He has sacrificed his turkey hunting to be here with us this year. That is love! It makes me melt to think he would give up something he loves to take care of us.
It makes me wish we could do it all again.
I was worried about how things would go with delivery. I worried about how Madison would be with a baby around. I was worried that my love would be divided & not multiplied when this beautiful little girl entered the world. The truth is, is that the worry was for nothing. Delivery, though it had some scary moments as you can read in my birth story, was fantastic. I felt almost normal just a few hours after.
Madison when she came into my room that afternoon, looked a little worried & then a split second later a smile spread across her face & she jumped up on my bed & asked to hold her baby sister.She gave her hugs & kisses. She has been mommy's little helper since the minute we got home. She has gotten diapers, wipes, blankets, pacifiers & anything else I have asked her to get or she thinks baby sister needs.
Oh & the love! The love has multiplied by a million. I am so deeply in love with both of my girls! To see them together makes my heart swell. I hope they are always like this.The love hasn't just multiplied for my girls.
Its multiplied for my husband. I always knew he was a great man, but to see him taking care of our girls, of me & the house on top of going to work makes me love this man even more. He may not be the guy to give out compliments or say "thank you" for the things I do around the house, but he shows his love in the way he provides for us & takes care of us. He has sacrificed his turkey hunting to be here with us this year. That is love! It makes me melt to think he would give up something he loves to take care of us.
It makes me wish we could do it all again.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Birth Story
May 1st
1:30 am - Woke to a puking Madison. Had to clean her up in a tub & get her back to bed.
After she was back asleep I couldn't fall asleep for the life of me. I knew something was up, but didn't know what.
4:30 am went potty & found blood in toilet. Called L&D as I had not experienced that before. Nurse informed me it was bloody show & that they would probably see me later.Talked to Dan & he decided not to go to work just in case.
5:30 called my mom to let her know what was going on.
9:15 am Went into Dr appt & explained what I was feeling & what happened. I was check & was still 2 cm, but contracting every 30 mins. She told me she thought I would be in later in the day to have baby, but set up an NST for Friday & induction for May 8.
Called my mom & told her what the Dr said. Mom decided to drive out (4 hour drive).
4:00 pm We went for a long walk after Mom got to me. (1.6 miles) I started contracting pretty good, but they died. I started to feel that it just wasn't meant to be.
8:00 pm. We put Madison to bed
9:08 pm I started contracting & timing them.
9:45 pm Dan tells me he is going to bed. I told him what was happening & that I'd be talking to him in about 20 mins as so far my contractions were 5 mins apart for a minute or more in length (needed an hour before going in)
10:30 pm I was still contracting 5 mins apart, so I went to the bedroom to talk to Dan. We decided to have my mom take me in & he would stay with Madison until I was admitted so we didn't wake Madison for nothing.
11 pm I got to the hospital & hooked up. We had issues getting the contractions to show up on screen so the nurse was palpitating for contractions. I was 3 cm at that point & contracting every 3-5 mins.
Midnight the On-call Dr decided to admit me, so we were taken to a room to get gowned & put back on the monitors. I called Dan to tell him to wake up & get moving.
12:15 am Dr comes in to talk to me about Paityn. It turns out the monitors were showing her heart rate was decelerating with my contractions, so she wanted to break my water & put the internal monitors on as they are a little more reliable. She also mentioned that if this kept up we were looking at an emergency c-section.
I called Dan & asked how long he was going to be & he told me 1 hour, so I consented to the water break right away.
12:30 am they broke my water & found that we had a little meconium in it. So they tried to prepare me for what may happen after delivery. From suctioning & her crying - therefore being fine to the worst possible. So freak out!
1:30 am Contractions were getting to be about 2-3 mins apart so I jumped on a birthing ball because laying in bed was hurting in my hips. Birthing ball was heaven. It made them feel like they were nothing. However, it only lasted 15 mins as her heart rate started to decelerate again with contractions. So back to bed & on my side I had to go.
1:45 am I got the news that I need to be put on pitocin as apparently I rocked my contractions to sleep on the ball & they were back to 5-7 mins apart. I about cried. I begged & pleaded to let it be for a while, but the Dr insisted on it because of the meconium & the heart rate decelerations. So IV was given & pitocin administered.
3 am It was time for an epidural. I couldn't take it anymore. Dan had been trying to soothe me through contractions. The nurse coached me through breathing & my mom rubbed my lower back/hips during them & it was still just too much. Almost immediately after the Epidural was put in my blood pressure dropped! It was scary for me laying there shaking & being nauseous to see the anesthesiology jump up & administer a medicine into my IV without out even talking to me. My nurse had to fill me in as he was trying to avoid issues. Which is fine at least someone was telling us what was going on. They had to work for about 30 mins to get my blood pressure back up & they gave me a dose of Zofran to help with the nausea.
4 am I got checked & was at 5 cm! Pitocin was still only at 3! I was estatic to find my body was actually doing the work!
6 am I started to feel pressure in my butt with every contraction. She was moving down!
6:30 am They checked me & was 8 cm
7 am I decided it was time to call my Grandma to let her know since I knew she would be awake at that point.
7:15 am I hung up with my Grandma & the Dr walked into the room to check me. She didn't have to look hard. She said "Oh yeah, the head is right there! You can see her hair!" The room became a flury of activity - breaking down the bed, turning the warmer on - gowning up. There were extra nurses for baby just in case, extra for me too! Dan grabbed one leg & my mom the other. I started to push. We got in 1 push & then had to wait about a minute for another contraction to push again. Her head was out & they suctioned & suctioned her. I waited & waited anxiously & straining to hear her cry. She cried! I cried! 1 more push & she was out & on me. Dan cut her cord. She scored 9 on her apgars. When pushing I could feel the contractions & her crowning & all, but it was a dulled version. I felt when the stitched my tear up. I was still numb just not a lot.
She was born at 7:22 am weighing 8 lbs 11 oz & 20 inches long.
Despite having the pitocin & all the scares we had though common they were still scary when it happens, this labor is one that I have no regrets over. Nothing to say I wish I didn't have x,y or z. I'm pretty proud of myself for holding off & letting my body do the work that I know it was capable of & for making sure I knew what was going & the reasons for things.
1:30 am - Woke to a puking Madison. Had to clean her up in a tub & get her back to bed.
After she was back asleep I couldn't fall asleep for the life of me. I knew something was up, but didn't know what.
4:30 am went potty & found blood in toilet. Called L&D as I had not experienced that before. Nurse informed me it was bloody show & that they would probably see me later.Talked to Dan & he decided not to go to work just in case.
5:30 called my mom to let her know what was going on.
9:15 am Went into Dr appt & explained what I was feeling & what happened. I was check & was still 2 cm, but contracting every 30 mins. She told me she thought I would be in later in the day to have baby, but set up an NST for Friday & induction for May 8.
Called my mom & told her what the Dr said. Mom decided to drive out (4 hour drive).
4:00 pm We went for a long walk after Mom got to me. (1.6 miles) I started contracting pretty good, but they died. I started to feel that it just wasn't meant to be.
8:00 pm. We put Madison to bed
9:08 pm I started contracting & timing them.
9:45 pm Dan tells me he is going to bed. I told him what was happening & that I'd be talking to him in about 20 mins as so far my contractions were 5 mins apart for a minute or more in length (needed an hour before going in)
10:30 pm I was still contracting 5 mins apart, so I went to the bedroom to talk to Dan. We decided to have my mom take me in & he would stay with Madison until I was admitted so we didn't wake Madison for nothing.
11 pm I got to the hospital & hooked up. We had issues getting the contractions to show up on screen so the nurse was palpitating for contractions. I was 3 cm at that point & contracting every 3-5 mins.
Midnight the On-call Dr decided to admit me, so we were taken to a room to get gowned & put back on the monitors. I called Dan to tell him to wake up & get moving.
12:15 am Dr comes in to talk to me about Paityn. It turns out the monitors were showing her heart rate was decelerating with my contractions, so she wanted to break my water & put the internal monitors on as they are a little more reliable. She also mentioned that if this kept up we were looking at an emergency c-section.
I called Dan & asked how long he was going to be & he told me 1 hour, so I consented to the water break right away.
12:30 am they broke my water & found that we had a little meconium in it. So they tried to prepare me for what may happen after delivery. From suctioning & her crying - therefore being fine to the worst possible. So freak out!
1:30 am Contractions were getting to be about 2-3 mins apart so I jumped on a birthing ball because laying in bed was hurting in my hips. Birthing ball was heaven. It made them feel like they were nothing. However, it only lasted 15 mins as her heart rate started to decelerate again with contractions. So back to bed & on my side I had to go.
1:45 am I got the news that I need to be put on pitocin as apparently I rocked my contractions to sleep on the ball & they were back to 5-7 mins apart. I about cried. I begged & pleaded to let it be for a while, but the Dr insisted on it because of the meconium & the heart rate decelerations. So IV was given & pitocin administered.
3 am It was time for an epidural. I couldn't take it anymore. Dan had been trying to soothe me through contractions. The nurse coached me through breathing & my mom rubbed my lower back/hips during them & it was still just too much. Almost immediately after the Epidural was put in my blood pressure dropped! It was scary for me laying there shaking & being nauseous to see the anesthesiology jump up & administer a medicine into my IV without out even talking to me. My nurse had to fill me in as he was trying to avoid issues. Which is fine at least someone was telling us what was going on. They had to work for about 30 mins to get my blood pressure back up & they gave me a dose of Zofran to help with the nausea.
4 am I got checked & was at 5 cm! Pitocin was still only at 3! I was estatic to find my body was actually doing the work!
6 am I started to feel pressure in my butt with every contraction. She was moving down!
6:30 am They checked me & was 8 cm
7 am I decided it was time to call my Grandma to let her know since I knew she would be awake at that point.
7:15 am I hung up with my Grandma & the Dr walked into the room to check me. She didn't have to look hard. She said "Oh yeah, the head is right there! You can see her hair!" The room became a flury of activity - breaking down the bed, turning the warmer on - gowning up. There were extra nurses for baby just in case, extra for me too! Dan grabbed one leg & my mom the other. I started to push. We got in 1 push & then had to wait about a minute for another contraction to push again. Her head was out & they suctioned & suctioned her. I waited & waited anxiously & straining to hear her cry. She cried! I cried! 1 more push & she was out & on me. Dan cut her cord. She scored 9 on her apgars. When pushing I could feel the contractions & her crowning & all, but it was a dulled version. I felt when the stitched my tear up. I was still numb just not a lot.
She was born at 7:22 am weighing 8 lbs 11 oz & 20 inches long.
Despite having the pitocin & all the scares we had though common they were still scary when it happens, this labor is one that I have no regrets over. Nothing to say I wish I didn't have x,y or z. I'm pretty proud of myself for holding off & letting my body do the work that I know it was capable of & for making sure I knew what was going & the reasons for things.
She is here!
Well, my sweet little girl, Paityn Marie made her entrance into the world Thursday May 2 @ 7:22 am. She was a whopping 8 lbs 11 oz & 20 inches!
I will post a birth story later, but I just wanted to share our joy now.
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