Due Date!

Well, here we are at my due date. A little disappointed I made it this far as this one seemed to want to come & now seems intent on staying put.

She has dropped down super low & has been "engaged" for what seems like weeks. Oh well, I know she will show her face soon or she has an eviction date of 5/8 (10 days away).

So what have I done today? I ran out to Walmart this morning to exchange a sun dress I bought Madison that I apparently got too big & to get some potting soil. Walmart didn't have the size I wanted just the small bags, so I ended up over at Lowes. At Lowes I found my potting soil & I also found 2 bushes for the front of the house! Sweet deal! Then we decided to work outside since it was going to be so nice out today..Dan was going to till but the tiller stopped working after one row. Oh well, at least he never had to pay for it. I decided to rip out about a 5 ft by 20 ft. section of sod & start putting in my roses. I got that ripped out & my 2 roses in the ground. I still have to put my hydrangea in, but that was enough for me today as I'm hurting a little from it. Our dirt isn't the easiest to dig in as its more clay like than anything & it was pretty wet still. I must say I'm pretty proud of all the stuff I accomplished today as its not easy moving around 9 months pregnant!

After that I had to run to Ace for some fabric to put down to keep the weeds at bay. Then I decided I deserved a blizzard from DQ. Yep! Ever since I've been sitting my butt down & watching shows with my favorite almost 3 year old (Madison).

I'm looking forward to a BBQ pulled pork sandwich & coleslaw for dinner! Just trying to enjoy the last moments/days before this little one shows up. As I'm a ticking time bomb now.

I will leave you with my 40 week picture.

Now lets hope she comes soon!

Hard Day

Today has been pretty hard. After last night I thought for sure I was going to be having my baby today. I had contractions pretty much all day. At 9 pm I was having them steadily every 7 mins for 1-1 1/2 mins in length & they were starting to get annoying. Well at around 10 pm I decided I was going to go lay in bed & try to get some sleep at the Dr told me 5 mins apart 1 min in length for 1 hour before heading in. Well, sure enough I slept. Woke up with acid reflux issues a few times. I could feel contractions but they had spread out again. By this morning they were almost gone. GRRR!

I was so exhausted. Felt like I didn't sleep a wink. woke up just before 7:30 & realized I had a Chiropractor appt at 8:30! CRAP! Had to get my butt dressed, wake Madison & get her dressed. Well, no time for breakfast. DAMN IT! Went to the appt, then went to the mall & had breakfast at Panera & let Madison play for bit. Well, contractions started up again. We headed home, just in case. I got a big "HAHA!" from the contractions as the died out again. Son of a xxxxx! Oh well, After lunch Madison went down for a nap & guess what I did?! Yep I napped for 2 1/2 hours, could have slept more, but little miss woke up yelling. I have just been miserable since. I feel exhausted & have a headache that won't go away.


To make matters worse I just want to go crawl under my pillows & cry. Today marks 1 year since I said goodbye to my Grandpa. Grumpy Grampy as I liked to call him. It was this day one year ago that our family gathered around his bedside & prayed, told stories & well, just waited. Its a day I have mixed emotions about. So grateful I got to be there, to hold his hand & tell him it was ok to go when he took his last breathe. Though another part of me wishes I never had to live it, but that side just doesn't want to have lived it because I want him here! I want him to be there to say hi to his new great-granddaughter & take both of them fishing, like he took my brother & I. That is obviously the selfish side of me.

Watching someone pass, especially someone close to you, even if its in a very peaceful manner as my Grandpa's was, is something that changes you. It changes the way you look at things. It gives you new perspective. I always thought that watching him pass would be traumatic, but honestly, it wasn't. It was a relief because I knew he was no longer in pain. It was sad. It was more than I think I could ever describe, but its something that I'm glad I was there for. It made me realize I was stronger than I thought I was. I feel lucky to have been there with him. It changed me in the fact that I started seeking out God more. No, I'm still not into religion, well, organized religion, but I'm open to it now. When I say I'm seeking God out, I mean I pray more, I talk to him more. I look for Him more in my life.

If I had to be honest here, I would say the day is hardest because I wanted my baby girl here today because her entrance to the world would make this day better. It would no longer be the anniversary of my Grandpa's death, but it would be the day my baby was born. I think it would heal more in me & in my family that we knew we needed healed. It would be a circle closed - a circle of life - so to speak.

Week 40

Well, I opted out of being induced on Wednesday. Also opted out for next week Monday. Now, I go back to the Dr on 5/1 if this baby doesn't show her face before then.

We are still at 2 cm. I've been contracting on & off all day so far. More so since my appt as she stripped my membranes in hopes to get things moving along. She said it seems as though my body was already gearing up for labor so lets hope this really gets it moving. I would love to have my little one in my arms!

I have actually been hoping all along that this little one would show her face tomorrow. As tomorrow is a hard day. It will mark a year since I held my grandfather's hand & told him it was ok to go, as he passed away. Its a day I never want to forget, but at the same time, I would love for a happy memory to help ease the pain that comes with it. Plus to have her show her face on that day would also be a circle of life so to speak.

So off to do some cleaning & walking & anything else I can think of to get this baby motivated to get out!

How far along? 39 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain: 23 lbs (no gain in 2 week!)

Maternity clothes? Yes, since about 7 weeks

Stretch marks? I think my stretch marks have stretch marks

Linea Nigra:  Still Not yet (never had one with Madison, so...)

Sleep: Not much. Insomnia is back.

Times you Potty a Night:  3 + times a night

Best moment of the week: Having a day all to myself!

Miss anything?  Not really

Movement: Yes, but as she grows she is running out of room & doesn't move as often.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not at all.

Cravings: Mexican Food!

Gender prediction:  Doesn't matter anymore because its a girl
Gender: GIRL

Labor signs:  Contractions - 2 cm dilated 50% effaced, loss of pieces of plug

Symptoms:  The bump in front, some sore boobs, & pregnancy insomnia & being uncomfortable

Aches & Pains:  A sore lower back from carrying the bump & a sciatic nerve pain, the hip & pelvic pain & the pain of a baby head bouncing off my cervix all day long!

Belly button in or out? Still in, but seems like it might just pop out soon.

Wedding rings on or off? Off. Sadness.

Happy or moody most of the time? Uncomfortable

Looking forward to:  Holding my baby girl in my arms!

Week 39

What can I say? I've been uncomfortable for a while. Today at my appointment I was told I'm finally 2 cm! WOOHOO! This is more progress than I made with Madison before heading into the hospital & being put on pitocin. Honestly, with Madison I wasn't even 2 cm until 14 hours after my water broke (12 hours after Pit was started), so this is huge news! I got a sweep done & have been contracting since, just not regularly. If it doesn't put me in labor, I hope it at least gets me to more progress.

Now I was also given the option of being induced next week Wednesday (4/24). As nice as it sounds to have a date, I'm not sure what I want to do. I hated Pit with Madison & would really love to avoid it, but at the same time I am miserable & just ready to be done. I don't have to have a decision until Monday when my next appt is. If I make it to Monday's appt she will do a sweep again to try to get things going without the drugs. I guess I will spend the next few days weighing my options.

How far along? 38 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain: 22 lbs (no gain in 2 week!)

Maternity clothes? Yes, since about 7 weeks

Stretch marks? I think my stretch marks have stretch marks

Linea Nigra:  Still Not yet (never had one with Madison, so...)

Sleep: Not much. Insomnia is back.

Times you Potty a Night:  3 + times a night

Best moment of the week: Having a day all to myself!

Miss anything?  Not really

Movement: Yes, I'm getting kicked & punched daily. Hubby is finally able to feel the movement of this baby girl & now pokes & prods at her when she does kick him.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not at all.

Cravings: Mexican Food!

Gender prediction:  Doesn't matter anymore because its a girl
Gender: GIRL

Labor signs:  Contractions - 2 cm dilated 50% effaced - Progress has been made!

Symptoms:  The bump in front, some sore boobs, & pregnancy insomnia & being uncomfortable

Aches & Pains:  A sore lower back from carrying the bump & a sciatic nerve pain, the hip & pelvic pain & the pain of a baby head bouncing off my cervix all day long!

Belly button in or out? Still in, but seems like it might just pop out soon.

Wedding rings on or off? Off. Sadness.

Happy or moody most of the time? Uncomfortable

Looking forward to:  Holding my baby girl in my arms!

38 Weeks

Frustrated beyond belief! There was no change or progress from last week. Though on the plus side I gained no weight.

I feel so sore & tired from being pregnant that I'm just ready to be done. Yes, obviously I want a healthy baby, so she can bake as long as she wants, but it would be nice if she let up a little on causing me pain. I can't sleep more than a solid 2 hours a night because of hip/pelvic pain & getting up to pee 3 or more times a night.

So this Saturday Dan is taking Madison with him to go to a trapping show. Its about 2 hours away, so this Momma cannot go due to Dr's orders about how far I can go from home/hospital. So I get to spend a day all by myself doing whatever I want. Now the question is what do I want to do? Maybe nap? Veg out on the couch? Shopping? Mani/Pedi? I have time to figure it out at least.

How far along? 37 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain: 22 lbs (no gain in a week!)

Maternity clothes? Yes, since about 7 weeks

Stretch marks? I think my stretch marks have stretch marks

Linea Nigra:  Still Not yet (never had one with Madison, so...)

Sleep: Not much. Insomnia is back.

Times you Potty a Night:  3 + times a night

Best moment of the week: Flying a kite & blowing bubbles with Madison

Miss anything?  Not really

Movement: Yes, I'm getting kicked & punched daily. Hubby is finally able to feel the movement of this baby girl & now pokes & prods at her when she does kick him.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not at all.

Cravings: Mexican Food!

Gender prediction:  Doesn't matter anymore because its a girl
Gender: GIRL

Labor signs:  Contractions - 1 cm dilated 30% effaced - no change from last week

Symptoms:  The bump in front, some sore boobs, & pregnancy insomnia & being uncomfortable

Aches & Pains:  A sore lower back from carrying the bump & a sciatic nerve pain, the hip & pelvic pain & the pain of a baby head bouncing off my cervix all day long!

Belly button in or out? Still in, but seems like it might just pop out soon.

Wedding rings on or off? Off. Sadness.

Happy or moody most of the time? Uncomfortable

Looking forward to:  Saturday all to myself!

Week 37

Today I went to my 1st weekly OB appt. We are on our way to having a baby soon. I am 1 cm dilated already. This is 3 weeks ahead of where I was with Madison! Of course 5 days after that my water broke with Madison, so lets see what happens!

I want her to be a healthy baby girl, but I'm ready for her to be here. I'm ready to hold her in my arms & kiss her little face.

How far along? 36 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain: 22 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes, since about 7 weeks

Stretch marks? I think my stretch marks have stretch marks

Linea Nigra:  Still Not yet (never had one with Madison, so...)

Sleep: Not much. Insomnia is back.

Times you Potty a Night: 2 + times a night

Best moment of the week: Watching my first born find Easter Eggs & discover her Easter basket on Easter morning!

Miss anything?  Not really

Movement: Yes, I'm getting kicked & punched daily. Hubby is finally able to feel the movement of this baby girl & now pokes & prods at her when she does kick him.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not at all.

Cravings: Mexican Food!

Gender prediction:  Doesn't matter anymore because its a girl
Gender: GIRL

Labor signs:  Just the daily BH contractions is all. 

Symptoms:  The bump in front, some sore boobs, & pregnancy insomnia & being uncomfortable

Aches & Pains:  A sore lower back from carrying the bump & a sciatic nerve pain, the hip & pelvic pain & the pain of a baby head bouncing off my cervix all day long!

Belly button in or out? Still in, but seems like it might just pop out soon.

Wedding rings on or off? Off. Sadness.

Happy or moody most of the time? Uncomfortable

Looking forward to:  My next OB appt on Monday & holding my new baby girl

Week 36

It seems that I have hit the miserable phase of pregnancy. Nothing, but pains. Pelvic pain & hip pain is the worst. It feels like I'm a freaking wishbone that someone is trying to split apart! Its all worth it for this little girl, just like everything I went through in my first pregnancy was worth it to have Madison. I must admit though, I am glad that this is my last pregnancy. I don't think my body could handle another pregnancy after how uncomfortable & painful this one has been.

Monday is my next OB appt & starts my weekly appts. We are so close to having this little girl in our arms. I can't believe it! Lets hope this contractions have made some progress! As I don't really want a repeat of a 20 1/2 hour labor with pitocin!

How far along? 35 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain: 21 lbs

Maternity clothes? Yes, since about 7 weeks

Stretch marks? I think my stretch marks have stretch marks

Linea Nigra:  Still Not yet (never had one with Madison, so...)

Sleep: Not much. Insomnia is back.

Times you Potty a Night: 2 + times a night

Best moment of the week: Prenatal massage, manicure & pedicure!

Miss anything?  Not really

Movement: Yes, I'm getting kicked & punched daily. Hubby is finally able to feel the movement of this baby girl & now pokes & prods at her when she does kick him.

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not at all.

Cravings: Mexican Food!

Gender prediction:  Doesn't matter anymore because its a girl
Gender: GIRL

Labor signs:  Just the daily BH contractions is all.

Symptoms:  The bump in front, some sore boobs, & pregnancy insomnia & being uncomfortable

Aches & Pains:  A sore lower back from carrying the bump & a sciatic nerve pain, the hip & pelvic pain & the pain of a baby head bouncing off my cervix all day long!

Belly button in or out? Still in, but seems like it might just pop out soon.

Wedding rings on or off? Off. Sadness.

Happy or moody most of the time? Uncomfortable

Looking forward to:  OB appointment on Monday! Time to find out how close we are to labor!