I'm not sure what to think at this moment in time. I got a text message today that Grandpa went back into the hospital. I called to find out what was going on & his blood counts were down & he isn't eating.

I was told to pack an emergency bag in case I need to leave quickly. I got the impression that this could really be the start of the end. That he may be giving up the fight.

I don't know how to feel. I obviously never wanted to lose him & I will never truly be ready to lose him, but I want him to go on his terms.

That is really all I got, I guess I need to process this more.